"... And she smiles at the future." ~Proverbs 31:25

Saturday, June 25, 2011

for real?

Did you ever get the feeling that you are not actually living in reality? For example, after Lance and I came home from our honeymoon, I felt like we were just 'playing' house. It didn't seem real. It just seemed like I was dreaming (in a good way.) Well, that's how I feel now. I am a MOM. crazy! When I was in the hospital with him I almost felt like I was with my nephew. Now that I am home, it seems almost like he is on loan. What did I do to deserve such a wonderful little man? Or better yet, who and why is someone trusting the life of another human being in my hands? I feel so blessed and so undeserving. I just watch him while he is sleeping and think "do I really get to keep him"? Wouldn't you think the same thing if you saw this face everyday ..............